I started a spiritual fast no food yesterday. This is enduring the spiritual battle I am going through with my husband as I am trying to fast for a spiritual breakthrough for my husband to be delivered and for his salvation. We been married for 7 years. Last night he went through his negative list of things that happened to him ( he is under this narcissistic spirits) blaming me for everything and it literally broke my spirits of me being an incompetent wife and failure.

I used to be an alcoholic- a lot of this was due to the depression of how my husband treats me. He criticizes on me daily and picks on me. He criticizes my weight, how much I eat, how much my kids eat (he doesn’t have biological children) blames me that I was crazy this is why we don’t have kids as now I am nearing 50 and he’s 5 years younger.

I honestly lost my cool and self control BADLY, it felt like a demonic spirit. I haven’t touched alcohol in months, been living like a hermit choosing a set apart life- far from what I used to be- a party girl. I dont ever use makeup or dress like how I used to or even get my mani pedis anymore. . I have chosen to live a life worth of Yahuah’s expectation of a daughter of the most high.

I am in tears and my heart is so broken. I haven’t eaten anything cause I was trying to pray for breakthrough and I FAILED losing self control. I hit myself and punched the wood frame with my hand I recently had surgery on but I felt such
A rage and suicidal thoughts hit me of being a failure and I feel so sad right now.

I failed abba. Now my husband will use this against me like everything in my marriage to him.

I am so heart broken. I failed😔💔💔💔 I was doing so well and trying to pray for him and I felt possessed.

Please pray for me😭😭😭😭💔💔