Seeking insight, seeking where in the word I can zero in on as I continue to pray for direction to receive a word, direction and the will is of Elohim. I sought advise from an elder as this was very private to me and one of the things I was told is this. (it is appropriate to keep such matters in a measure of discretion however the value of the input of your brethren cannot be overstated)

No words can describe how humbling and vulnerable this is to put this out there but the cost is great so I only ask that It be meet with love...That this treated with respect because we don't control where we wake up from our strong delusions and as I continue to grow I am pulled more and more. to walk a narrow path but this comes at costs; this comes at great cost to some. I am in this moment reminded of the great price Yahuash paid for us, the burden he carried and how immeasurable it is. My burden is not comparable but one cannot sooth a broken heart, one cannot tell the heart not to feel what it feels. But my salvation ultimately more important than anything on this earth and to quote someone we all love and respect "This is the home of strong and the very courageous" and courage is doing the right thing even when its hard. So I humble my self before you all, I lay myself at the feet of Yahusha and demonstrate that I have courage to do as he commands even if I am weeping all the way through it if it be his will. This is the cost of being the Remnant and being on the narrow path.

See below the burden I am carrying and the question I asked and the hopes that this brings mercy in the eyes of Yahusha in the form of direction so I understand my path forward.............Thank you all

Yahusha has placed on my heart that my relationship needs to be addressed. I have been in a relationship with my girlfriend for the last 6 plus years. We have a child whom is 5 now. And in this time I have been called, or stumbled my way back into his word; whatever it may be, she does not share any belief or faith like I have. In fact she has no belief and does not believe in a creator. I really want to do the right thing here and in accordance with the will and law of Yahusha. I have been trying very hard to walk the narrow path, lead by example in that Yahusha might through me work on her heart and bring my family together. But I am not spiritually mature and could be completely wrong here. At the end of the day I am reminded of many profits that have had to make hard choices about their family, children and their salvation putting Yahusha before all. I will do that if it is the will of Yahusha but I do not have the spiritual maturity to discern the path forward. I was going to sit down with her and share my faith and why I am trying to make these changes in my life, why I need to be on the narrow path in hopes that she will understand, support me and try to grow with me. I send her the Weekly Updates, I have sent her streams to try and allow Yahusha to begin to work on her heart but she does not watch them. I just dont know if all this in vein and will never be blessed by him. I know you are busy and I am sorry to ask for help. I am not usually one to ask but I recognize I am out of my depth and need direction. Are you able to give me guidance, is there another elder that can guide me? I am not negotiating here, I am not thinking I can straddle the fence here with my salvation. I understand something needs to be done. Praise Yah and may his will be done in my life.
Sincerely,
The hardest thing I have ever done and that says a lot lol.