After yesterday’s amazing service, I’ve been reminded of several things I had forgotten. The first being fasting; it’s been a bit since I have fasted, and, I’m ashamed to admit, it’s because of the problems I have been facing.

I’ve also been reminded of a prayer I made a year ago. A very important prayer that I realize now I’ve gone back on. Everything I’m facing right now is of my own making, because I didn’t trust YHWH enough; even though I THOUGHT I did, and I THOUGHT I was following what He said.

Yet I forgot the prayer. In that prayer I gave Him my husband, I knew I couldn’t do what he needed. Only YHWH could, all I could do was love him through it. BUT, I got in His way every chance I could! Not on purpose, not in malice, but because I truly didn’t trust Him.

I have hit my face and repented for this since yesterday. I’ve cried my eyes out over knowing how much hurt and pain I’ve dealt not only me and my husband, but my Father. He’s been here waiting for me to step back, and I just kept getting in the way of our blessing!

My husband wants so bad to leave, and now I do to. He’s not talking divorce, just leaving, and to be honest I got excited. Which stunned me for a moment, because I was excited FOR him to leave, I just didn’t know why?

Until a piece of a dream came back a few moments ago. My husband sitting at a table on a covered porch with someone holding or sitting very close to an old oil lamp. I was standing there watching with a smile before the dream changed. I had that dream before I joined Remnant House...

I remember every detail of that dream, but haven’t thought about it until today. I truly think YHWH has my husband, and if He removes him from my life there’s a great reason! For now though, I’m working on my relationship with YHWH, He is my priority and my main love; always has been. And I thought I knew what faith and trust were.....but I let Him down

Forgive me for being unfaithful (and long winded), but I’m finally back to truly listening and doing what our Father says.

I seen glimpses of the man I fell in love with more and more, so I wrestled the reins out of YHWH’s hands because I was too impatient. Now I get to learn patience...and beg forgiveness. Thank y’all for the prayers and love, I’m sending prayers and lots of love to you too ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

After watching the shabbat broadcast ... this will give you goosebumps.

Another throwback! Check it out.

I’m coming straight to my family with this, my husband needs prayers really bad. I wrote a while back about him “snapping” and deciding he was done being married, out of the blue with no warning at all.

I’ve been praying for him, and after I brought it to y’all, a little over a year ago, he’s been great! And now suddenly, again, he blindsided me; and it’s way worse.

He’s so angry at me that he HATES me. He is pretending I don’t exist, and if he does say anything to me it’s a horrible, nasty string of abuse!

He admitted I didn’t deserve him screaming at me, and he didn’t know why he did. Yet he’s angry at me for “wasting” his money for doctors. He doesn’t think anything is wrong with me, and I shouldn’t be spending his money.

I canceled all my appointments except for regular checkups every 3 months, and every test they had planned. He knows they found “something” in my lungs and my bloodwork is still abnormal with platelets close to 500,000. Yet I feel it’s all about money...

I don’t need Drs or tests, I’m covered. But I’ve not let the enemy take him. I’ve continued loving him, and letting him know. Yet the more I love him the angrier he gets, and I’ve not seen this level of...hatred from him before.

I told him I will leave him alone, but I would continue to fight for him against this enemy. Because the man I fell in love with is still in there, and anger or hurt could justify walking away, but even if YHWH removed him from my life, I can’t leave him to suffer.

You can see him struggle, he honestly doesn’t know why he says and does those things. I ask all of you to pray for him, that he can release this stronghold or addiction to getting more money, that the enemy loose him, and that he look to our Father, and cling to him alone, and finally that YHWH’s will be done in ALL things......

Thank you all so much for putting up with my “novels” and standing in the gap praying and protecting our families. I’m sending lots of love and prayers to all of you daily ♥️♥️♥️♥️

https://youtu.be/maZ4oyRIth4
Shabbat Shalom!! It is one thing to own a weapon, but it takes skill to wield a weapon. Join us on the Shabbat to talk about the weapons of our warfare.

Check out this track, a throwback from the Prophecy Club with some uplifting music: